So there I was, standing on my Dad's front porch holding my screaming 2-year old and covered in her throw-up while my 6 week old is screaming from her car seat in the car. Patty came rushing out the door to help and I looked at her and said as seriously as I possibly could, "I don't know what to do." This utterance of mine brought on so many moments from the past 6 weeks and at that moment, standing there covered in throw-up, they all came to me at once. I don't know what to do...when Ellie throws her yogurt all over the carpet while I'm feeding the baby; when Olivia stopped taking naps; when Ellie throws herself on the floor of Target and screams bloody murder; when Olivia refuses to be put down so that I can eat lunch; when Ellie repeats the same thing that she wants over and over again until I say yes because I can no longer stand it; when both the girls start crying in the car the minute I pull out of the garage on our way to Salt Lake; when I'm in the middle of taking a shower with shampoo in my hair and Olivia starts screaming; when Ellie won't go to sleep at night and instead asks for a "sip of water" until one of us brings her some; when both girls decide that sleep isn't an option for their parents and keep us up all night. Now, although these moments make it sound like it has been really hard, there have been some truly great moments like when I get Ellie in the morning and she says to me, "Hi, mommy. Get baby livvy?; when Olivia has started to smile at us and shows us her adorable dimples; when Ellie gives me big hugs and tells me she loves me; when Olivia tries to eat my face which I am pretending that she is kissing me; when Ellie and Hubert dance; when Olivia goes to sleep at 7:00 and doesn't wake up until 2:00; when Ellie eats the dinner I made her and tells me it's delicious; and when Olivia cuddles right up to me and puts her chubby little arms around my neck. There are really so many more things that are great instead of hard, but I know that if there weren't any hard ones, I wouldn't appreciate the great ones as much and besides, how can it be hard to not love these two little girls.
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I don't mean to suggest that your heartwarming story isn't 100% true but Olivia putting her arms around your neck reminds me of About a Boy when he tells the SPAT group that his 2 yr. Old Ned puts his pudgy arms around his neck and says "You hang in there dad!..... " Next time this happens just remember Ned and maybe it will give you a little more comfort or another reason to smile.
True that!
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