Saturday, December 13, 2014
The four words my daughter said that broke my heart
Her answers were all yes. And then I said that being skinny isn't important, being healthy is. Being able to run, jump, play, ride bikes, that's what's important. She then said this to me, "Mom, you're not skinny." Honestly, it was music to my ears because I'm not, but I am a lot of other things. I said back to her that she was right, but what are some things I can do? She replied with a few things that I am able to do, things that make me healthy. This is so badly what I wanted to hear from her because I want her to strive to be a healthy person, not an unhealthy person. Again, being skinny isn't bad. Many of my friends are and they are fit and strong and healthy and I love them.
The conversation ended positively and she hasn't brought it up again and hopefully she won't for a very long time. Having girls has been so wonderful, but there are so many challenges and I know this one will be a lifetime challenge. They will feel insecurities and bad about themselves. These things will happen, not if, but when. I just didn't expect it to happen when she is five. I love this little girl so much. She makes me happy in ways I can't describe and my happiness doesn't come from how she looks, it comes from her belly laughs, her inability to not ever walk and only ever run, her love for dancing and watching her dance all over the house, her love for playing soccer and how she just wants to score "goalies." Her smile if infectious. She loves her sisters. She's a wonderful little girl, not because of how she looks, but because of how she loves. I'm so grateful that I get to be her mom.